Friday, December 30, 2011

Piano Self-Learning on a Rainy Day

I woke up today feeling depressed. But I decided to change my mood by eating my breakfast and preoccupying my mind with different things.


Sis already arrived home by 11 AM. And it was that time when I visited my blog. I was in the mood for music so I searched for the music sheet of Adele's Someone Like You. Hm. I'm still horrible at it. I uploaded the file here. Yea, I suck at it. Hahha. :]]


For now, this is one of those songs which I can relate to.
P.S. the video didn't cover all of the song, just the first part of it.


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# Rainy Rizal Day.



Tuesday, December 27, 2011

RDASIA Contest Entry :)

Hey there! :D


I just submitted a 500-word article to Reader's Digest ASIA. It's an entry to their contest and I think my article will be posted there tomorrow. Lucky! :D

Here is the article I wrote on a haste to fight off my laziness. Hahha. :)


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3 Things I'm Thankful for this Christmas:

It has been quite a long year for me and my family this year. A lot has happened and I have experienced things which I didn't expect to experience in my 16 years of age. Though it might have been a tough year, I am thankful that I was able to go through it and that I am able to smile now. Picking three things that I am most thankful for turned out to be kind of a hard job because there are just a lot of things I'm thankful for that I can't choose. Fortunately, I was still able to come up with the three things I am most thankful for.

Firstly, I thank God for giving me a very beautiful family who, amidst all trials, has always stayed as one, never leaving each other. I know a lot of people who have broken families and whenever I try to put myself into their shoes, I kind of feel the kind of suffering they are feeling. Therefore, no matter how many times me and my siblings fight over some really trivial and childish things, I am still very thankful. I thank God that I, at least, have some siblings who I can fight with every day.

Secondly, I am very thankful for having a lot of friends whom I can spend a lot of my vacant hours with at school. Whenever I feel lonely or just out of it, I, at least, have someone who I can talk it over with. They are also very funny and it's weird because I just find myself laughing out loud when I am with them. At first, all we would talk about are just crazy stuffs, but as time passed by, I felt that our bonds have gotten stronger. We were all able to open up little by little. I am thankful that I have people who are concerned for me and whom I can be concerned with. People - whom I can talk about my troubles, things that surprise me, my love problems and people whom I can make happy and sad memories with. Though there might be misunderstandings amongst us in the future, I hope that we would all be able to understand each and everyone's complex feelings.

Lastly, I am very thankful that I am gifted with a lot of abilities by God. Thankful also because I didn't have any serious handicaps and that I have a healthy body.

Though I still have a lot of things that I am thankful for, I just may have to stop here since I just have to write three. Besides, I am writing this now amidst of a very tight schedule. :P To end, I have a phrase to share. "When I'm worried and I can't sleep, I count my blessings, instead of sheep. Then I fall asleep, counting my blessings." Have a Happy New Year! :D

Wednesday, December 21, 2011

I know plenty of people with eyes closed. They don't see you like I do.

Wednesday, November 30, 2011

Things to do. :)

1. Report in Eng 11 (Bring La, Ch, Ad) - be ready for a quiz.
2. Quiz in Pe 2 - Badminton
3. Pe - Be in Pe uniform, bring badminton and shuttle, extra shirt, b-ball, table tennis.
4. Ba - Read. Quiz.
5. Mgt 183 - read assigned readings. energizer. print ppt.
6. Econ 101 - xerox Aggregate D, s, bus. cycle and future readings. be ready for a quiz on c & i.
7. Math 101 - 1x1 id pic. 3x5 card. print Thursday and Wednesday words. xerox mae's book.
8. buy xobe's huggble stuff.
9. dec 1, get wage. :D
10. watch origami videos.
11. basketball session on friday. dec 2. (to attend or not to attend?) bring ball
12. dec 2 - lalay's bday. go home early.
13. bring badminton chorba on Thurs and Fri.
14. buy lalay's gift. dec 1.
15. IELTS info. scholarship info. exam date. place. fee.
16. GSIS college plan reimbursement. :)
17. no more med..

Dec. 3, 2011

1. Wait for Cocolo Phone int. 10-12 noon. 6-9 pm (use 0905 sim)
2. Sweet's place - 1pm Terminal. P150.00 (fare) , allowance. overnyt bag. (sooooo excited)
3. IELTS exam.
4. Rj session.
5. Rj phone interview. (QA app)
6. have fun. :)








This is for me. :))






Yummmm~ Hhaha. :))









My lovable niece! :)

Sunday, November 20, 2011

10 Ways to Love According to the Bible



1. Listen without interrupting  
(Proverb 18)
He who answers before he hears-- his is the folly and the shame

2. Speak without accusing.
(James 1:19)
Know this, my beloved brothers: let every person be quick to hear, slow to speak, slow to anger

3. Give without sparing.
(Proverb 21:26)
All day long he craves for more, but the righteous give without sparing.

4. Pray without ceasing.
(Colossians 1:9)
For this reason, since the day we heard about you, we have not stopped praying for you. We continually ask God to fill you with the knowledge of his will through all the wisdom and understanding that the Spirit gives.

5. Answer without arguing 
(Proverb 17:1)
Better a dry crust with peace and quiet than a house full of feasting, with strife.

6. Share without pretending
(Ephesians 4:15)
Instead, speaking the truth in love, we will grow to become in every respect the mature body of him who is the head, that is, Christ.

7. Enjoy without complaint.
(Philippians 2:14)
Do everything without grumbling or arguing

8. Trust without wavering.
(Corinthians 13:7)
it always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres

9. Forgive without punishing.
(Colossians 3:13)
Bear with each other and forgive one another if any of you has a grievance against someone. Forgive as the Lord forgave you.

10. Promise without forgetting
(Proverbs 13:12)
Hope deferred makes the heart sick, but a longing fulfilled is a tree of life

Monday, November 7, 2011

Happy hippy morning! :D


Sis bought me a really reallllyy nice pair of gym wear. I love it and I feel like I wanna have PE as my major. Hahhah. Kiddin.. I was so tired that's why I slept in 'till 10:00 am. It doesn't feel good at all, sleeping for long. The humidity of my room was what awakened me.



I don't really have plans for today. Maybe I'll go to a bookstore to buy a book and some school supplies. Maybe I'll watch a movie. Maybe I'll accompany my bro to a spa. Maybe I'll accompany Sis to her dance practice. Maybeeeeee- Haha. Full of maybe's. :))))



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This is the last day of my long vacation.
Hm. I'm gonna go back to the list of what I wanted to do and see if I have accomplished something.


Let's wait for today's evening post! :D
Banzzaaaiii!!!

Tuesday, November 1, 2011

Viola.

Today was the most enjoyable and NOT BORING day I've ever had this entire month. Haha.
I learned about a lot of things, PLUS! I spent a lot of time with my family doin' reasonably useful things. :D


I'm so happyyy~~~

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I went out with Sis and Mop and Bro to my grandfather's memorial bed. Given our very "dynamic" personalities, it was a big challenge, getting us in there without having to beat ourselves up. Haha. We managed and everyone was miraculously in a good mood that I couldn't just believe it. We spent a few hours there just recalling things about grandpop. We also prayed and before going home, me and bro felt the urge to buy some food. I bought an ice scramble and bro bought a drink. Not to mention how feminine she, I mean, he was while we were climbing up and down the other people's memorial beds. Haha. :)

I met my elementary classmates there too! Maria Theresa Indic and Joanna was there, if I recall their names correctly. I also saw some UPians and also some Leyteans. I also met some relatives and one face I can't ever forget was that of Uncle Eddie P. :) He had the warmest smile of all the other people there! His smile is jusrt wonderful. Yknw, the kind of smile that makes you want to smile too. Dignified, I guess?


Afterwards, we went to my sis' ballroom teach. While she was arranging for when they would meet and have the dance classes, I went out for a small trip by myself. I saw a very beautiful church near where Mop and I and Sis sat. I was very enthralled to it that I just laid down all my belongings to Mop's lap and walked to there. I was having second thoughts whether I should go or not but I figured since I was already there, I should just go. I entered the gate and walked towards the church while marveling at the beautiful site of the church and savoring the sweet scent of Tolosa's fresh air. On my right, I saw two kids playing by the meadow and on my left, I saw a man cleaning Mother Mary's sculpture. I was thinking maybe I should go to the kids or to the man but decided to just go straight to the church. I peeked inside the church and didn't see anyone at first glance. I draw nearer and saw some very wonderful things inside the church. Fascinated, I looked more into the church and just as I was goin' to get inside, I heard a melody coming from the church's altar. I took a glance and saw a boy in a white robe singing. I looked and he also noticed me. Feeling guilty that I had trespassed, I glanced the other way and walked farther from the door. I was goin' to get another peek and decided to go to the other entrance but saw a group of youngsters enjoying themselves. They saw me too, probably because of my footsteps, and took a good look at me. I knew because they stopped laughing and just looked at me, figuring what I would do next. I got jealous because I was alone and they  were havin' fun since they were a lot and so I just turned around and acted like I lost interest and all. I was havin' second thoughts by this time, though, so my walking pace was very slow. After a while, I decided it'd be weirder if I just go back there and say, "Hey! Let's be friends!" and stuff so I just went back to Mop and Sis.



We decided to go home after that. :)


At home, we all watched a movie since it was raining, and we thought a movie and rain would be just great. The movie made me think about a lot of things. Such as: Anastasia of the Romanov Family, William Shakespeare, his love life, the Jews and Hitler. I learned a lot though, I actually skipped my daily tutoring. Oooops! I'm not a good teacher at all. Haha.



Hm. That's all for tonight! :)





William Shakespeare, let me be your Viola. 

Monday, October 31, 2011

Boston.

It's a nice morning.


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After a few days, classes will be starting again and so I am now finding ways to make sure that I am able to make the most out of my vacation. :D


Here is the list of what I want to do:

1. Learn Origami.
2. Learn how to whistle.
3. Adapt to a good sleeping habit (e.g. 10 pm and with the lights off)
4. Learn a new sport. 
5. Read 2 books. (Paulo Coelho's Brida is now currently being read)
6. Learn an instrument. 
7. Learn how to cook. 



Hhahah. I'm so bad at doing things. I dunno how to cook, etc. I hope I can learn a lot of things in 7 days. 
Wish me luck! :))



You don't know me. You don't wear my chains. 

Monday, October 24, 2011

It's just an ordinary day.

I dunno why but I really feel like I can relate to this song.


End of May


Golden haze, Another morning feels like yesterday.

End of May; Now you're gone and there's still bills to pay.
And you know it doesn't help to make believe you're sitting next to me.
It doesn't help to make believe that you are right behind me,
Saying it's okay.


Longer days, More time to sit and watch the pendulum sway.

In quiet rage I'm staring at this empty notebook page.
In times like these you feel like you are done with feeling,
You feel you want to stop the pain from healing
Because you feel like you're the only one who’s ever felt this way.


Some days in a daze, there's brighter days.
Funny how the feeling never stays,
But I know I'll have to come to terms when I'm awake,
Thinking about you is the icing on the cake.
Makes me realize the fact you're gone for good, For goodness sake.


Golden haze, 
Another morning feels like yesterday.

End of May,
A year is gone and I still feel this way,
And when we meet again I'll ask you how you're doing..
And you'll say fine and ask me how I'm doing
And then I'll lie and I'll say ordinary..

It's just an ordinary day.

Sunday, October 23, 2011

Remembering and trying to forget.

I found a notebook from when we were 3rd year high schoolers.
I saw your handwriting messing with mine.



I miss those days.


Wish nothing changed.

Thursday, October 6, 2011

Magic Moment.

Hellooo~~
It's raining hard tonight. But it's okay. I like rain. :)



I delivered a report on my Mgt 101 class today. I was very nervous actually, though I didn't let it surface. When I am nervous, I most usually do weird things and after doing those weird things, feel uncomfortable. I had a hard time coping with the STRESS (funny, this is the topic of my report) and somehow was only able to manage it after asking some of my friends. :)


The first friend I asked was Kim. She told me the key to coping with this kind of anxiety is that you should not force yourself to be comfortable immediately. In the first few minutes of your delivery, you can try looking at the wall or you can try looking at a classmate who is smiling. Because they are smiling, it may boost your confidence, thereby giving you the chance to cope with your nervousness.


The second person I told this about was Wendam. :) Yea, I know that's her surname but that's just how I remember her. Hm. Maybe because I really like her surname. :) She cheered me on along with Princess. :) They are such good people. :D


After this, I went to the classroom and prepared the notebook I brought and tried to set up the projector. This is actually the first time I ever operated a projector by myself. xD If my mom were to see me like this, I know I'll be getting a good nagging. Hm. That's because I normally destroy things at home. Haha. And so, my family calls me, "The Destroyer". xD Seeee. Palpak. xDD The word EPIC is so normal when it comes to me. =)))


I dunno what to say. I'm just glad I was able to set up the projector successfully without damaging it. xD


I started delivering my report. At first, I was really sad because none of my group mates were there. But, I just let it pass and concentrated on how I should compose myself in front of my classmates. I felt nervous the whole time but I let it out by smiling. I wanted to be my usual self that's why I didn't try to hide the fact that I was really nervous. Good thing my topic was stress. They were able to see a STRESSED person right in front of them, in my presence. Hahaha.


After explaining the last slide, I was worried about how they would react. You know, I'm not the most confident person here on Earth. So what I did was I turned my back and tried acting as if I was keeping the projector cord. I felt very uncomfortable and it's weird because I'm supposed to feel relieved since the job's finished. My hands were trembling a bit and my hair was a mess because when I talk, I usually have this mannerism of touching my hair and every time I do it, I feel more comfortable. xD



The thing that actually made me feel relieved was when I heard my classmates' applause. I felt so fulfilled. I felt soooo happy! Happier than the times when I receive my monthly wage. Hahaha! I was so happy and I knew I was blushing. So I stood there for a little while. And with my back turned to them.. secretly smiled.




This was probably one of those "magic moments" I heard about. 







Wednesday, October 5, 2011

Youth.

I'm a bit sick today.
Too much coffee, I guess... But it's okay, I'm fine. :)


Hm. I woke up early today, as usual. I walked around the neighborhood for a bit. I realized it would be so much better if we can see the sea. But, it's impossible. :)) Good thing it's peaceful around here. If it wasn't, I would've hated it. xD


Dunno why but.. i'm always always having cramps after sitting down. It's weird, but anyway, today I dun have to go to school. Yatttaaa! :D I promised I would read and study for my 4th Long Exam in Calculus. So I will, after I make this post. Haha. Procrastinating again, eh?


:)

Youth - doing something until all your energy runs out, making happy memories, and also sad ones. :)

Tuesday, October 4, 2011

Change.

Geeehhh. I'm really tireeedddd.
So I'll make today's blog short.


I haven't decided on anything yet. I've only been holdin' on to the past. Saying things like I miss my friends and all. It's harsh for me to say such things, I figure. I'm supposed to cherish the new people who care for me, and just let go of things. I'm a bad person, because I can't do even this. I have to treat my friends well. :)


2nd point. I've always had this urge to look at my cellphone's inbox. I keep waiting for a message I know I will never receive. I didn't know it would be so frustrating and all. So I decided to change something.


Today, I changed my number..,

So I won't have to wait again. :)







Monday, October 3, 2011

Chance Meeting.

Today is Rosalie Almaden's 18th birthday. I really really really reallly wanted to go. I wanted to see everyone. I wanted to see her in a beautiful gown. I want to see how people feel when they reach that age. I think I missed a lot of things today. :'(


Circumstances wouldn't let me do so.



I went home together with Aya today! :D She's one of my closest friends. Haha. We've been friends and classmates since high school but now that we're in college, we seldom see each other. Going home together is one of the best and rarest things that we could do. :) So today, I was so happy. I didn't have to go home alone anymore. I wish this would happen everyday. :)



We talked about a lot of things in the jeepney. You know me, I always run my mouth nonstop if I'm with a friend I really like. Our main topic was about Rosalie's birthday and I was kinda deciding if I should go. Since Aya and my other high school friends were going, I made up my mind to go. :)



I arrived home and it was really dark. Lights were out. Good thing we had a lot of spare candles. :) My mom is such a good housekeeper. :)


5:45 pm - I went to school. I thought I was going to make it to school by 6. But there was this really crazy and heavy traffic so I was delayed to :6:15 pm. ;) I still thought Id make it. Finally, I arrived in school. It was so daaaarrk.. I couldn't manage at all. I was so freakin' scared to the point where I'd talk to any enemy who was there just for the sake of NOT being alone. xD What a scaredy cat. :)



I asked Manong Guard to come with me to the AS grounds. Hahha. He told me he couldn't go much further since he was guarding his post. So okaaay. To the library, we went. He left me alone at the library. I thought I'd be able to manage myself since I had this flashlight that my mom bought me. But alas! The flashlight flickered, maybe because of how harsh I treated it a few hours ago. I planned to run until I reach AS gate.. I really thought I could run without stopping! But I lost to fear when i reached the staircase.. It was a godsend that my flashlight actually worked that time. Deo Gratias!



I gathered all my courage and tried to run to AS grounds again. With all my might, I said I'd do it. So I did it and I actually thought that I was going to reach the place! When I was in the staircase, I heard some weird sounds coming from OSA. I was dead scared about it and was praying hard in my head. I ran and I was shocked when the light from my flashlight hit some kind of white clothing. AAAAAAAAAAAA!!!! I screamed out loud in my head, but the words that came out of my mouth was "huhhhhhhh oh my goddddd..." But I realized they were actually my upperclassmen and not the ghosts! I was relieved for a bit but I panicked because the upperclassmen saw how I reacted and I was kinda embarrassed about it. Hm. Wellll, I guess I don;t have to worry. They'll forget it in a matter of days. =))))



I reached AS campus at last. It was still pitch black there. I asked some of my friends there if they'd seen my  other friends. They told me that they didn't and I got a bit sad about it. However, I was so grateful they were willing to let me use their phones so I can text Rosalie and company.


I was walking with Tashy and I decided I should go with her if I wanted to use her cellphone so that I won't slow her down. Me and Aya exhanged a few SMS and we still haven't finished talking when I saw a friend. Hm. Well. That friend said he couldn't leave a thing, I mean, a girl behind and insisted that he should come with us. Hm. Okay. Now, we have someone to feed to the vampires. Bwahahahhha.


Anyways! I still didn't make it to Rosalie's party. I tried to push my luck and even got Tash and Xern (kuya) in trouble. So I guess I shouldn't push my luck anymore. I tried to put on a smile but.. I REALLLYY  REALLLLYYY WANTED TO GOOOOO!!!!! >.< :((



I went to Robinson's Mall and bought frozen yogurt. I thought it would cost something like 40 php at most . since at Twirlberry, I was able to buy it at 25 php. But alas! I bought it for 89 pesos. =_= Lawl.  Daaaammn I should've just eaten at Jollibeeee!!! Aiissshh~~~~  But I still had no regrets since the frozen yogurt was amazingly the best I've ever tasted! :D It's my favorite already! But don't worry, Mr. Eggpie and Ms. Mixed Fruits, Ms. Chocolate and Ms. Nestle Fruit Selection Yogurt, I still like you, guys! :)




Now, I'm at home. :) I wish they're havin' a lot of fun there. So they can tell me a lot of stories tomorrow. :)
It's hell week. So I guess, I won't be able to blog until Friday.


Let's see what happens. :)



It's raining. I wish I had met you today. I wish we could meet up, just like how we did in the past. :)









Sunday, October 2, 2011

Hell week starts tomorrow.



Hm. I hope that things turn out fine for me. :)
Too tired now. Can't write anymore.



Oyasumi~! :)


People can change. :)

Saturday, October 1, 2011

I am Cosmos Girl

Aaaaaaahhhhhhh~~ :)
Just woke up. x]

Hm. I sure had a bad dream. Nightmares again. xD




We can’t return to the past, yet we can’t see what is ahead of us. 

As an antithesis to what I just wrote about yesterday, I have figured a way out of regrets. :) I saw this quote on backup system today. Yes, we can't return to the past, yet we can't see what's ahead of us. <3


Right now, I'm looking forward to what life has in store for me. :)
I won't miss any more opportunities ever again! :D


Life is like the cosmos. We are living in the midst of a mystery. :)


Friday, September 30, 2011

Color my life.

Today, as I was just thinkin' about high school while I was in the cab on my way home, I saw an old friend of mine.  I didn't realize at first that it was him. So I stared for a little while. But then I recognized him after some time. Like 5 seconds? I didn't know if he saw me but I guess he didn't since he just stared back.


What happened right there? I was about to think maybe he has forgotten me so I erased those thoughts and looked away from him. I don't know if I did the right thing. Should I have called his attention? Urghh. I suck, reallyyyyyyy!!! xD


Anyways. Today was a bit of a tiring day. I dunno what was happening to me but I seemed to be down the whole day. I found it hard to smile and I felt like I was dragging my whole body to school. Maybe this just wasn't the day for me.


Maybe this was the consequence of the many nights I deprived myself of sleep. I've only been reading things at night, or if not, just the usual thing: social networking and stuff. Haha.. Hm. I feel like I'm inside a floating bubble. I know that the course I took now wasn't the right one for me. You see, I don't feel the kind of zest I should be experiencing! I don't feel that excited about the major subject that I have. And everythin' is just soooo dull.


There is this certain degree of ambiguity inside of me and I don't like it.. I feel sad for not realizing things at an earlier time. Right now, you can say that I'm full of regrets. I know it's a bad thing to keep regretting things. But I can't help it. I just can't. Where did I hit it off wrongly? T.t


Maybe it started when I was in my fourth year in high school. I really wanted to apply for a certain college but I felt so afraid that I didn't do what I was supposed to do. I sooooooo suck at making decisions. I wish I  can turn back time. :(

But now, I guess that it can't be helped at all. I have to deal with the consequences of my inability to make smart decisions. I have to make up for every single chance I wasted. I wish I'd be much more capable and independent. I wish I'd be given another chance to actually pursue the dreams that I've planned to chase back then. I wish I could go through something that would bring back the color in my life.


I dream of a life. I dream of a metamorphosis.

Thursday, September 29, 2011

I miss a lot of things. :'(

I miss high school.
I miss my friends. my classroom. my seat. my seatmates. my best friends. 
I miss the people who took the time to listen to my thoughts though sometimes I didn't make any sense. 
I miss the people who rode a cab with me on the way home. I think that talking inside a moving vehicle is the most thrilling thing I'd ever experienced. The fact that these people were special to me made it more memorable. 
I miss how people would nag at how childish I was back then. Coz right now, I think I've only been focusing on the things a mature person would do.  


Hm. but today, I am also very happy. I found a picture wherein I was captured sitting alongside the shore with my best friend. I liked the picture and the discovery so much that I thought I might cry. I looked at the picture very earnestly and discovered that it was taken three years ago. I wanted to see how much I have changed so I continued observing the picture of the me from three years ago. 


I was moved by the chemistry between me and my best friend. it made me think of the times we were together. every single minute i was with her, i was very happy. i felt loved and i felt complete. :)


then i saw the smile i had three years back. it was a different smile. i wondered what was so vague with it so i tried to remember the moment when that picture was taken. and then i remembered. that time, i was very happy. i didn't need to strike a pose on the camera. that was a stolen picture. the person who took that pic was also my friend. we were having a party at the beach. we were carefree and we had no worries. That could've been the most perfect day of my life. :)