Monday, October 31, 2011

Boston.

It's a nice morning.


:]


After a few days, classes will be starting again and so I am now finding ways to make sure that I am able to make the most out of my vacation. :D


Here is the list of what I want to do:

1. Learn Origami.
2. Learn how to whistle.
3. Adapt to a good sleeping habit (e.g. 10 pm and with the lights off)
4. Learn a new sport. 
5. Read 2 books. (Paulo Coelho's Brida is now currently being read)
6. Learn an instrument. 
7. Learn how to cook. 



Hhahah. I'm so bad at doing things. I dunno how to cook, etc. I hope I can learn a lot of things in 7 days. 
Wish me luck! :))



You don't know me. You don't wear my chains. 

Monday, October 24, 2011

It's just an ordinary day.

I dunno why but I really feel like I can relate to this song.


End of May


Golden haze, Another morning feels like yesterday.

End of May; Now you're gone and there's still bills to pay.
And you know it doesn't help to make believe you're sitting next to me.
It doesn't help to make believe that you are right behind me,
Saying it's okay.


Longer days, More time to sit and watch the pendulum sway.

In quiet rage I'm staring at this empty notebook page.
In times like these you feel like you are done with feeling,
You feel you want to stop the pain from healing
Because you feel like you're the only one who’s ever felt this way.


Some days in a daze, there's brighter days.
Funny how the feeling never stays,
But I know I'll have to come to terms when I'm awake,
Thinking about you is the icing on the cake.
Makes me realize the fact you're gone for good, For goodness sake.


Golden haze, 
Another morning feels like yesterday.

End of May,
A year is gone and I still feel this way,
And when we meet again I'll ask you how you're doing..
And you'll say fine and ask me how I'm doing
And then I'll lie and I'll say ordinary..

It's just an ordinary day.

Sunday, October 23, 2011

Remembering and trying to forget.

I found a notebook from when we were 3rd year high schoolers.
I saw your handwriting messing with mine.



I miss those days.


Wish nothing changed.

Thursday, October 6, 2011

Magic Moment.

Hellooo~~
It's raining hard tonight. But it's okay. I like rain. :)



I delivered a report on my Mgt 101 class today. I was very nervous actually, though I didn't let it surface. When I am nervous, I most usually do weird things and after doing those weird things, feel uncomfortable. I had a hard time coping with the STRESS (funny, this is the topic of my report) and somehow was only able to manage it after asking some of my friends. :)


The first friend I asked was Kim. She told me the key to coping with this kind of anxiety is that you should not force yourself to be comfortable immediately. In the first few minutes of your delivery, you can try looking at the wall or you can try looking at a classmate who is smiling. Because they are smiling, it may boost your confidence, thereby giving you the chance to cope with your nervousness.


The second person I told this about was Wendam. :) Yea, I know that's her surname but that's just how I remember her. Hm. Maybe because I really like her surname. :) She cheered me on along with Princess. :) They are such good people. :D


After this, I went to the classroom and prepared the notebook I brought and tried to set up the projector. This is actually the first time I ever operated a projector by myself. xD If my mom were to see me like this, I know I'll be getting a good nagging. Hm. That's because I normally destroy things at home. Haha. And so, my family calls me, "The Destroyer". xD Seeee. Palpak. xDD The word EPIC is so normal when it comes to me. =)))


I dunno what to say. I'm just glad I was able to set up the projector successfully without damaging it. xD


I started delivering my report. At first, I was really sad because none of my group mates were there. But, I just let it pass and concentrated on how I should compose myself in front of my classmates. I felt nervous the whole time but I let it out by smiling. I wanted to be my usual self that's why I didn't try to hide the fact that I was really nervous. Good thing my topic was stress. They were able to see a STRESSED person right in front of them, in my presence. Hahaha.


After explaining the last slide, I was worried about how they would react. You know, I'm not the most confident person here on Earth. So what I did was I turned my back and tried acting as if I was keeping the projector cord. I felt very uncomfortable and it's weird because I'm supposed to feel relieved since the job's finished. My hands were trembling a bit and my hair was a mess because when I talk, I usually have this mannerism of touching my hair and every time I do it, I feel more comfortable. xD



The thing that actually made me feel relieved was when I heard my classmates' applause. I felt so fulfilled. I felt soooo happy! Happier than the times when I receive my monthly wage. Hahaha! I was so happy and I knew I was blushing. So I stood there for a little while. And with my back turned to them.. secretly smiled.




This was probably one of those "magic moments" I heard about. 







Wednesday, October 5, 2011

Youth.

I'm a bit sick today.
Too much coffee, I guess... But it's okay, I'm fine. :)


Hm. I woke up early today, as usual. I walked around the neighborhood for a bit. I realized it would be so much better if we can see the sea. But, it's impossible. :)) Good thing it's peaceful around here. If it wasn't, I would've hated it. xD


Dunno why but.. i'm always always having cramps after sitting down. It's weird, but anyway, today I dun have to go to school. Yatttaaa! :D I promised I would read and study for my 4th Long Exam in Calculus. So I will, after I make this post. Haha. Procrastinating again, eh?


:)

Youth - doing something until all your energy runs out, making happy memories, and also sad ones. :)

Tuesday, October 4, 2011

Change.

Geeehhh. I'm really tireeedddd.
So I'll make today's blog short.


I haven't decided on anything yet. I've only been holdin' on to the past. Saying things like I miss my friends and all. It's harsh for me to say such things, I figure. I'm supposed to cherish the new people who care for me, and just let go of things. I'm a bad person, because I can't do even this. I have to treat my friends well. :)


2nd point. I've always had this urge to look at my cellphone's inbox. I keep waiting for a message I know I will never receive. I didn't know it would be so frustrating and all. So I decided to change something.


Today, I changed my number..,

So I won't have to wait again. :)







Monday, October 3, 2011

Chance Meeting.

Today is Rosalie Almaden's 18th birthday. I really really really reallly wanted to go. I wanted to see everyone. I wanted to see her in a beautiful gown. I want to see how people feel when they reach that age. I think I missed a lot of things today. :'(


Circumstances wouldn't let me do so.



I went home together with Aya today! :D She's one of my closest friends. Haha. We've been friends and classmates since high school but now that we're in college, we seldom see each other. Going home together is one of the best and rarest things that we could do. :) So today, I was so happy. I didn't have to go home alone anymore. I wish this would happen everyday. :)



We talked about a lot of things in the jeepney. You know me, I always run my mouth nonstop if I'm with a friend I really like. Our main topic was about Rosalie's birthday and I was kinda deciding if I should go. Since Aya and my other high school friends were going, I made up my mind to go. :)



I arrived home and it was really dark. Lights were out. Good thing we had a lot of spare candles. :) My mom is such a good housekeeper. :)


5:45 pm - I went to school. I thought I was going to make it to school by 6. But there was this really crazy and heavy traffic so I was delayed to :6:15 pm. ;) I still thought Id make it. Finally, I arrived in school. It was so daaaarrk.. I couldn't manage at all. I was so freakin' scared to the point where I'd talk to any enemy who was there just for the sake of NOT being alone. xD What a scaredy cat. :)



I asked Manong Guard to come with me to the AS grounds. Hahha. He told me he couldn't go much further since he was guarding his post. So okaaay. To the library, we went. He left me alone at the library. I thought I'd be able to manage myself since I had this flashlight that my mom bought me. But alas! The flashlight flickered, maybe because of how harsh I treated it a few hours ago. I planned to run until I reach AS gate.. I really thought I could run without stopping! But I lost to fear when i reached the staircase.. It was a godsend that my flashlight actually worked that time. Deo Gratias!



I gathered all my courage and tried to run to AS grounds again. With all my might, I said I'd do it. So I did it and I actually thought that I was going to reach the place! When I was in the staircase, I heard some weird sounds coming from OSA. I was dead scared about it and was praying hard in my head. I ran and I was shocked when the light from my flashlight hit some kind of white clothing. AAAAAAAAAAAA!!!! I screamed out loud in my head, but the words that came out of my mouth was "huhhhhhhh oh my goddddd..." But I realized they were actually my upperclassmen and not the ghosts! I was relieved for a bit but I panicked because the upperclassmen saw how I reacted and I was kinda embarrassed about it. Hm. Wellll, I guess I don;t have to worry. They'll forget it in a matter of days. =))))



I reached AS campus at last. It was still pitch black there. I asked some of my friends there if they'd seen my  other friends. They told me that they didn't and I got a bit sad about it. However, I was so grateful they were willing to let me use their phones so I can text Rosalie and company.


I was walking with Tashy and I decided I should go with her if I wanted to use her cellphone so that I won't slow her down. Me and Aya exhanged a few SMS and we still haven't finished talking when I saw a friend. Hm. Well. That friend said he couldn't leave a thing, I mean, a girl behind and insisted that he should come with us. Hm. Okay. Now, we have someone to feed to the vampires. Bwahahahhha.


Anyways! I still didn't make it to Rosalie's party. I tried to push my luck and even got Tash and Xern (kuya) in trouble. So I guess I shouldn't push my luck anymore. I tried to put on a smile but.. I REALLLYY  REALLLLYYY WANTED TO GOOOOO!!!!! >.< :((



I went to Robinson's Mall and bought frozen yogurt. I thought it would cost something like 40 php at most . since at Twirlberry, I was able to buy it at 25 php. But alas! I bought it for 89 pesos. =_= Lawl.  Daaaammn I should've just eaten at Jollibeeee!!! Aiissshh~~~~  But I still had no regrets since the frozen yogurt was amazingly the best I've ever tasted! :D It's my favorite already! But don't worry, Mr. Eggpie and Ms. Mixed Fruits, Ms. Chocolate and Ms. Nestle Fruit Selection Yogurt, I still like you, guys! :)




Now, I'm at home. :) I wish they're havin' a lot of fun there. So they can tell me a lot of stories tomorrow. :)
It's hell week. So I guess, I won't be able to blog until Friday.


Let's see what happens. :)



It's raining. I wish I had met you today. I wish we could meet up, just like how we did in the past. :)









Sunday, October 2, 2011

Hell week starts tomorrow.



Hm. I hope that things turn out fine for me. :)
Too tired now. Can't write anymore.



Oyasumi~! :)


People can change. :)

Saturday, October 1, 2011

I am Cosmos Girl

Aaaaaaahhhhhhh~~ :)
Just woke up. x]

Hm. I sure had a bad dream. Nightmares again. xD




We can’t return to the past, yet we can’t see what is ahead of us. 

As an antithesis to what I just wrote about yesterday, I have figured a way out of regrets. :) I saw this quote on backup system today. Yes, we can't return to the past, yet we can't see what's ahead of us. <3


Right now, I'm looking forward to what life has in store for me. :)
I won't miss any more opportunities ever again! :D


Life is like the cosmos. We are living in the midst of a mystery. :)